Saturday, December 30, 2006
At my lowest, I need you to be here. But you're always out of the sight. I do not know why, I wished you were here, whenever things goes the wrong way, it shouldn't have. I learnt that you're more than just a memory, more than a past of mine.
You've never tried to salvage it, when you told me it meant so much to you. It seems like a dream, like an illusion. The love and care has long been gone. I need you,
But you weren't there.
Thinkin' of you,
doesn't help feeling any least better.
I miss you.
Never look back, we said
How was I to know I’d miss you so
Loneliness up ahead, emptiness behind
Where do I go?
And you didn't hear
All my joy through my tears
All my hopes through my fears
Did you know, I still miss you somehow Still I wish you were here
posted @ 3:18 AM
+ + + Wednesday, December 27, 2006
One litre of tears
I was rather moved by your small lil' thoughtful gestures. This is not merely a dvd, but some thoughtful efforts and time you've put in. I was really surprised upon seeing the drawing; it had never crossed my mind that you can be that sweet. Thanks my dear. I'm not only thanking you for that but also the each and every night that you've accompanied me through, over the line. Thank you so much! I shall update my wonderful xmas eve with my ladies soon! I'm feeling rather tired to write a lengthy post now. So good nitey pepos! ::missing my darling hella loads::
posted @ 2:21 AM
+ + + Monday, December 25, 2006
HOHO ! MERRY CHRISTMAS !!!
Enjoy your xmas with your love ones to the fullest!
LOVES!
posted @ 8:46 AM
+ + + Sunday, December 24, 2006
Darling urged me to blog about my 18th bday celebration since I've got nothing better to do now. I was rather weary to about each and every details of it, so it might be a lil’ random. Then, I found that I've actually written a draft at blogger's on my bday celebration… so I'd be lazy for once more and just copy, paste it =X
Lionel asked for my address a few hrs before the clock strikes 12am. I knew something must be up on their sleeves. LOL. And then, Dean called me and asked my add as well. So… my dearest darling surprised me with her presence when the clock strikes 12am. She was already at my doorstep when I was at the void deck with the guys. I was so surprised with tears!
There are just too much left for me to say. I seriously have no idea where to start penning down. Whatsoever, I shall thank those whoever has sent me their wishing, thank you so much you're very much appreciated! Hehe I was very startled to receive people's who I am not so close with wishing. Thank you so much pepos!
I wanna to especially thank my dearest baby, JOCELYN SING HUIYU! My dear you've been planning that surprise pop up for almost week or more? I am still so touched; almost to tears my stupid! You travelled all the way from your home and especially hired dean as your spy in aiding you to the success of your surprise plan. No word is able to describe the wonderful love and care you've showered on me. 6 years of friendship and more years to come, of cos', you've been there for me these moment, thanks for standing by my side all these while, I love you stupid! Vice versa, I promise I'll never ever leave you my baby! I will always be there and bugs you for life man! So be wary la.. Don't you dare to get revolted of me! I love you my one and only lesbo! And again, thank you so much for the wonderful presents!!! I love them all loads! And yah, almost slipped out my mind, thanks ben for sending joy to me and sending her back safely =)
I love my life! Thanks pepos or making the night sucha wonderful one. I especially love my girlfrens; Joy, Yaya & Jamie Chye! Lots of kisses and hugs!
This must be one of my happiest days! I love you pepos! You’ve totally moved me to tears esp my girl! Thanks for showering me with so much love! I felt so pampered and blessed!
Princesses’ marathon later! Advance merry xmas to you!!!! HOHO~ it’s such a joyous season! Cast all your troubles aside and have loads of hearty fun!
posted @ 3:08 PM
+ + + Friday, December 22, 2006
I have removed my password for my dearest ms khng lijuan's sake, like always her com gives her stupid problem.. she cant log on to a password protected blog -_-''! Change your com juan! Anyway, the password seems to have defeated its purpose. People tends to have the SKILL or POTENTIAL to crack people's privacy/passwords and log on to one's blog and then what makes it worst is… to intrude others' privacy by showing how great they are with the ability to breaking the damn password and logged on to the site. Well, people all I could say is that if your life is so damn boring then you've my sympathy. Your tags and whatsoever comments won't get you anywhere near of putting me down, in fact you are just making a mockery out of yourself. So go ahead to do it again and again. Great entertainment too, aint they? Haha.
I am feeling much better now. anyway, I won't be coming online that often anymore. Have a good day ahead pepoosss! Ciao~
posted @ 12:51 PM
+ + + Wednesday, December 20, 2006
I have never felt this awful and rotten luck before. This is my worst nightmare. I skipped my sup paper due to my damn illness. Everything was going as per normal till my usual gastric pain strikes me. The pain was really stubborn; it did not go away for hrs. I cant sleep even I very much wanted to. The pain was notoriously painful at 5 something am. I woke up and ran to the toilet and vomited three times and had a run twice. i've never felt this awful I guess. I've never vomit so much in a day. Theres nothing I could do to cure the pain. So I called SIM and told them my situation. I'd have to produce a mc written with unfit for exam to them within the 48 hrs. i have no idea whether will there be any sup paper for me to sit for, or I just have to retake the entire module? I have already mentally prepared for the worst. I've learnt my lesson in a hard way.
I am still feeling very sick.
posted @ 5:41 PM
+ + + Tuesday, December 19, 2006
If I'd give u another chance will things change for the better this time? It will then be the third time and definitely gonna be the very last one if…
I crashed down onto my cozy bed thinking that I could sleeps in comfort without any bewilder thought hitting me once again, but I was wrong. I have no idea why do the sight of you and whatever regarding yours strikes me again. Especially at such an inappropriate time! I need my beauty sleep now!
Will history be repeated for the third time?
GOOD NITE!
posted @ 5:02 AM
+ + + Monday, December 18, 2006
was chatting to aki on msn to learnt that he will be staying at Japan for good, aint coming back to spore anymore.... this is a very shocking and saddening news.
He has been one nice dude to hang out with. He has got a glib tongue who has never failed to brighten up my day with his sweet talk. I have more and more lovely peeps leaving to another country, be it to further their studies or staying there for good. My dearest friend jeffry who has left me 2 years back to states, and esther who had went Australia to further her studies for a couple of years as well. I miss jeff very much. He is one friend who has been giving me his constant ears when I need to whine all my angers out. My dearest Miss kaur will also be leaving next feb to austraila to further her studies as well. I cant bear to part with any of them.... however, putting myself in their plight I would very much be enthusiastic to further my studies aboard. How I wish how I wish....
Well, coming to think of the positive side, there's at least somebody I could turn to if I'd to go japan for a vacation! Yada yada! My wish! I thought at japan there would have loads of pretty//kawaii girls around, however, to my bewilderment, aki told me he hasn't really seen any beauties of the legend around but the ugly ones. Hahs. instead of pretty babes, he said that the guys over there are much more cool and attractive! OMG! how I wish I flew over there instantly to get to meet those cute guys! Weeeeheeeee~
My very cute//crappy friends, Jason and Aki! anyway, Aki is still single and available! anyone up for a date with him??? Hahs.
Anyway, aki would be back in jan to settle all the stuffs here before heading back. Yea yea~ huggies all you wanna. Meeting up for sure! Take good care my dear uncle friend!
posted @ 8:31 PM
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Shall we back track a lil'? Or rather the things that have kept me so busy sometimes back.
The first meet up with the guys, Michael and lionel. I actually have met lionel who is better known as one of my gf before that. Hahs. anyways, they are nice fun chap to chill around with. We headed to vivo as I was anticipating getting a dress from mango for my dearest babe as her one of her sweet 18th present. It took Michael quite sometime to actually figure out the way to vivo from SIM. He's quite a stupid dude… or should I say he has no sense of direction? Hahs. there was already a long chain of cars awaiting to get into the carpark when we arrived there. vivo on a weekend is definitely a no-no!
Jamie and I went 'pa tuo'; to have a lil' private moment while the rest were patiently queuing outside the secret recipe. Hehs.
Having gotta the stuffs I needed; we had our stomach filled at secret recipe. We actually have a hard time fishing for a nice place to dine at as there was long queues of people at most of the restaurant. And I guess it was probably the worst decision made ever to dine at vivo's secret recipe. The service was awfully bad and dishes served were equally bad! that was the second time I frequented them, the first experience dining there wasn't any better either, be the service or the foods! I swear I am not gonna patronize vivo’s secret recipe the third time!
The awful foods!
Ben & jerry later! It's the glutton's fav! That's why we were there -.-"!
Here I proudly present the no sense of direction sister of mine!
can you spot jamie's seductive lip?
Shall update another entry of my 18th birthday and my darling's sweet 18th soon! Good nighty pepoosss~ CIAO!
posted @ 4:23 AM
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I, I don't know why I miss you so much
Yeah I, I don't know why I still feel your touch
You, you left me feeling high and dry
With nothing, nothing but the question why
Yeah you, I guess you had another direction
And leaving me with nothing but a dead connection
If you call me today
I'll say that I'm fine
But I bet you can tell by the tone of my voice
It's just a lie
You knew what you had
You still walked away leaving me in this mess
My love for you is deep and meaningless
You, you knew what you were doing to me
And I, I guess I was too blind to see
Well you hit where it hurt and you fooled me so bad
But I'd do it again to relive what we had
There are many things left to remind me
Of a love that I just cant leave behind me
posted @ 2:37 AM
+ + + Friday, December 15, 2006
I managed to catch my forty winks only at 7.30 this morning. It is totally madness! We yakked and yakked on so many topics and I have come to realise several of things. I totally digs midnight gossiping over the line especially when I'm tormenting with insomnia and boredom. So peposs just give me a beep anytime now. Hahs. Anyway, I was out with my girl, after she had done with her exams. We headed to meet Mr tay to get our way belated birthday present. Thank you so much Jason! We had our early dinner at ps secret recipe. Like always, we had tom yam chicken noodle! It's heavenly mouthwatering!
The timer playsss.... It's damn hilarious!
Can you picture the amount of stares we have received when we did that? Hahss... But we love doing it and will always do that, again and again... YADA YADA YADA~
after which, we headed to town for our mango sales!!! It's oh my fuckin' god upon seeing the long wait of ladies outside the boutique and the amount of ladies inside the boutique gasping for air and searching high and low for the clothing that they fancies. It's totally maniacs! The beautiful sight of ladies going crazy for garbs! Though darling and I detest such crowds, the mango sales were way too attracting and we'd be sorry if we will to miss it. we patronised several mango boutiques only to get what we wanna and I guess we aint the only crazes who patronised more than one mango boutique on the sales day. our limbs aches hella loads! we were almost dead having arrived at mos burger to catch a rest. my damn heels that have caused much blisters on my pathetic foots. We were totally drained and so we headed home not long later.
I so wanna to get this baby G but in white! This is god damn nice I thought. Have been eyeing for it for quite sometimes. any kind souls? weeeeeheeeeee~
sometimes the time just slips away
And your left with yesterday
Left with the memories
I'll always think of you and smile
And be happy for the time
posted @ 5:12 PM
+ + + Thursday, December 14, 2006
I wanted to retire early tonight; however, insomnia got the better of me again. Nothing could've been more worst than suffering from insomnia when I've got to wake up early the very next day. There are just too many things weighing on my mind, how I wish I can break away from them. Life couldn't have been more rotten for the past couples of months. Things haven't been going on my way and the amount of my ranting doesn't help the least bit. I've no idea what I am blogging on anyways. My apology having to have wasted your precious time reading this shit entry.
when the tears get near my eyes will you be the one that's by my side?
will you be there when I call you in the middle of the night?
will you keep the rain from falling down into my light?
will you take my take my darkest night and make it bright for me?
when this world has turned so cold will you be the one that's there to hold?
You're somebody I'll never forget.... Thanks for leaving ur footprints in my life.
posted @ 3:09 AM
+ + + Wednesday, December 13, 2006
I was out with darling, Jamie, Lionel and Michael on the last Friday night. I met my darling only at 6pm after her class and we headed to sushi teh at town to dine with the rest. Jamie was exceedingly high that evening had requested to sing k and of cos' not to spoil her good mood we accommodated with her decision though initially darling only wanted to spend the night with me, alone. I was getting really sleepy once we arrived at party world. No doubt, darling was even more worn out than I was as she only had a mere two hours of nap for the entire day dues to her proj doing! She could've stayed at home and compensated herself with the amount of beauty sleep she had lost, however, darling seriously love and miss me too much, thus, she forsook her beauty sleep only to meet me! You're the sweetest! Anyways, we left the ktv only at midnight when I was already totally shagged out and afterwhich, Michael gave us a ride home. Thanks my dear sister!
Headed to town with yaya on Sunday to search for the kids' xmas gifts. We headed to wisma gio first as I was hoping to meet my sweety bird, peili. This time it wasn't a failed trip; peili was working that evening and knocked off very soon after an hour or so. Michael joined us later while we strolled around the malls. After getting all the xmas gifts, Michael and I dined at NYDC, while peili and yaya headed home.
I miss peili super duper much alr!
Let loose and say what was on our minds....
It's sad that you couldn't have a hold on anything you wished to have; all you're left with is tears strolling down and hoping for a brighter and better life ahead.
posted @ 1:37 PM
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