It's alright. I'm feeling much better now. Thanks darling, Yaya, Lijuan and Nadia for everything. Thanks for listening me out and showered me with great concerns. Thanks my girlies, I love you heaps! Juan must meet up with me pretty soon okie! I miss you!

More pictures update soon !!!

Nadia, Yaya, Fadilah and I

The meanies and our sugar daddy, Anwar!

The meanies and Shima

''I met you today, to realise that my feeling has never changed. Nothing can be changed. But I know my boy will be better =D Miss my dear boy...''

posted @ 10:26 PM

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I thought sometime alone
was what we really needed
you said this time would hurt more than it helps
but I couldn't see that
I thought it was the end
of a beautiful story
and so I left the one I loved at home to be alone
and I tried to find
out if this one thing is true
that I'm nothing without you
I know better now
and I've had a change of heart


I'd rather have bad times with you, than good times with someone else
I'd rather be beside you in a storm, than safe and warm by myself
I'd rather have hard times together, than to have it easy apart
I'd rather have the one who holds my heart

And then I met someone
and thought she could replace you
we got a long just fine
we wasted time because she was not you
we had a lot of fun
though we knew were faking
love was not impressed with our connection they were all lies, all lies
so I'm here cause I found this one thing is true
that I'm nothing without you
I know better now
and I've had a change of heart


I'd rather have bad times with you, than good times with someone else
I'd rather be beside you in a storm, than safe and warm by myself
I'd rather have hard times together, than to have it easy apart
I'd rather have the one who holds my heart
who holds my heart


I can't blame you if you turn away from me, like I've done you,
I can only prove the things I say with time,
please be mine,

I'd rather have bad times with (please be mine) you,
than good times with someone else (I know)
I'd rather be beside you in a storm (anytime),
than safe and warm by myself (so sure baby)
I'd rather have hard times together,
than to have it easy apart
I'd rather have the one who holds my heart (my heart)

I'd rather have bad times with you (surely),
than good times with someone else (surely)
I'd rather be beside you in a storm (oh yeah),
than safe and warm by myself (all by myself)
I'd rather have hard times together,
than to have it easy apart (you know it)
I'd rather have the one who holds my heart

I'd rather have the one who holds my heart
I'd rather have the one who holds my heart
whooooo... who holds my heart


This was from you to me.

Boy, I wish you're here with me, right this moment. Cherish the times shared with you, I miss you, my boy. Be back home soon, I'll be waiting here.

- Don't fails me this time.

posted @ 1:55 AM

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Tuesday, July 25, 2006

Something wrong with the darn blogger last night, couldn't post up my entry. Anyways, I stayed up till the wee hours to accomplish my BC proj. Gosh! I was uber shagged can! My girls, Shu Huey and Jamie stayed up as late as I did. The poor threesome =( blame on the darn lecturer who did not made herself clear enough on what kind of proj she expected us to have. So counted us lucky, I brought my laptop to sch and shown the lecturer our entire proj. Guess what she told us? 'Girls, I think you got it entirely wrong, these are not what I want. You all have to redo the entire report.' Gosh! Redo the entire proj?!?!? You kid me not? And yes, she hadn't seen the entire proj thoroughly, what she have seen was only the heading and numbering. We are definitely not redoing the entire thing, but just editing is enough to be a killer to us.

I miss my girlies so much! How I wishes I have heaps of time to spend with my girlies. =( I miss my dearest Yaya, Nadia and my darling.

posted @ 9:25 PM

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Monday, July 24, 2006

Monday blues' seeping in....

Had a girl's chatty session with darling Joy last night. We bared our heart out, poured all our feeling out to each other. We chatted our preception on romance and the girls' stuffs. What kind of romance we would like to have and gossiped a lil too. Hehs. Though our eyes were pretty heavy, yelling for sleeps, we still chatted heartily in the wee hrs. Miss my darling so much! Perhaps she would be coming over to Dover to look for me after her sch. Yeah! Can't wait any longer to meet up with my dearest lesbo! Hehs. K anyways, I won't be having any lecture class on this coming fri and sat, a short break for us to accomplish our proj, presentation and preparation for the upcoming CA tests. Gosh! It's awesome! Having not waking up that early for school on this coming fri and sat! Hurray! Hehs. Hmm…gonna get my hair done by this weekends, simply can't stay any longer with this hair colour, detest it very much can! Darn IRK!

Again due to BC proj, I am not gonna have a good sleep tonight. Have to rush the entire proj by this coming wed, and besides pressing for time for this darn BC report, my POM report due on this coming thurs, which is not even half completed. Damn! Have so many things to do. This is why I am always so deprived of sleeps. K, I am off going to do my BC proj. DEATH =(

A random of pics.







































Lee San and I in the class.

















Yaya and I.


Yuppie! Going to Kbox with my crappy girls on thurs, after the completion of all group proj! A lil' getaway, yea!

posted @ 8:43 PM

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Friday, July 21, 2006

Watch my life sinking in to this inanition of life.

Skipped POM today, not exactly skipped the entire lecture, just the last part of it = P well, had she teaches well, we wouldn't have the intention to give it a miss. What she taught us was simply translated from the textbook. Hmmm.... but I promise there won't be a second time =) Cos I am a very obedient student *grins*.

K anyways, after lecture leeshan accompanied me to Funan IT mall to get my pay cheque from Jason- finally, yeah. I've waited long enough for this darn pay. Though having gotta the pay I am still very much broke. What am I suppose to do. Students are always the poorest isn't it? It might not be somebody's case, but very much for my case. Sigh!!!

I am very much sounding like an old woman, who is always grumbling about her sad life. God! What's happening?!?!?!

Stop all whining at once! Old lady!

The pictures time~























when we are together, we will go all maniacal! Teeheee Teeeheeee~






































That's all for today. Tadaaa~





....butterflies in my tummy.....

posted @ 6:43 PM

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Thursday, July 20, 2006

Breathe in the morning scent and watch how alluring this life is.

Well, today is just another day of schooling. Stayed back in school to review our BC report, again. But today were hella lots of fun! Hahaha! All thanks to Jamie, the 'Da jie', the crappy girl in our group has never fails to brighten us with a smile. And ya... I mentioned about HIM to Jamie and Shu Huey too. They were absolutely positive about me seeing him. Haha. They questioned me 'What's holding you back? What fears you?' Beats me. I don't know the answer either. DOHS~ k vexing subject aside.


It's time for the pictures!






















Joy and Michelle at the favourite cam-whoring place, after catching the awesome movie, Just My Luck. Booohooo~
















Great shopping spree with my darling.











































































Yaya and I, after catching another equally awesome movie as Just My Luck, She's the man!



Silence speaks the words on unspoken lips.
I'm close to you when I'm lying here
Safe in your arms
I know you are here.
Nothing can hurt
nothing could be wrong.
Yet somehow I'm scared this can't last as long.
Nightmares seem more realistic in bounds
As compared to dreams coming true.
When was the last time I ever said anything is real
I'm afraid this might end.
But I know the night spent was beautiful.
Just like your face.
Ever flawless and sweet.
Faithful to the gentleness and peace you give.
The loyalty I see in your eyes.
Trust I'd give definite you'll never say goodbye.
Stars are pretty as they shine
But when they're gone
Who will ever notice their sudden goodbye?
Whispers from lips of many souls.
And the jade green eyes they own.
But we don't care.
Not even for impossible.
I wanna wake up to where you are.

posted @ 8:48 PM

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Tuesday, July 18, 2006

Had my BC test in the afternoon. The questions given was somehow tricky, to be frank, I do not know how well can I score in this test. Hopefully I will get the score I've been yearning for. Hey, man! I've been studying this darn subject for days k. which I thinks it much more than enough. But who knows. Yada yada~ shan't carry on with this darn subj. anyways, after the test, stayed back in school for, again the darn BC report, proposal project. Oh lord, please save me from this subject once and for all!

BAD day, bad weather, bad mood~~~






















































The aloaf yaya and I in the ladies. The usual cam-whoring place. Teeheee teeheeee~








































my gorgeous darling Joy and I.
















More stupid pics of yaya and I...but not today. Perhaps some day/s later.

I'm so deprived of sleep lately that it's beginning to take its toll on me. God! I need more hours of sleep!








....Sometimes looking at things in a different light helps hold back those tears....

posted @ 9:03 PM

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Monday, July 17, 2006

Darn shagged after a day of schooling. Loaded with tons of proj and assignments to be accomplished. There's a BC CA test tmw. oh my gosh! I've been studying it for days, but still uncertain on quite a number of things. Am I getting too paranoid? I guess so. STRESS STRESS STRESS~ I hate insomnia. It had been striking me for weeks. DARN LIFE~

randoms of pics.
















People commented that yaya and I look identical in this pic. According to Nur hidayah. hahs











My lil precious, Louie. Baby boy <3 My babes
















My babes, the meanies!









....Treasure every moment, relish each day whilst the fine sands of time slip through your fingers....

posted @ 9:53 PM

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Sunday, July 16, 2006

I was at home for the entire Sunday. Boredom was all I could felt. Oh no! Besides feeling bored, I felt sleepy and shagged for the entire day. The weather was a killer too. It was darn humid! Lead me to have constant headache. Shit! Was feeling all wrong throughout the day. K whining aside now. Let me recall what did I do for the past few hours? Hmmm... caught some HK series on the tally. Did a lil revision on business communication and POA. Review a lil on my POM individual proj. Browsed through couples of people's blogs. And had a god darn uncomfortable afternoon nap which worsens my headache aftermath.

Not much time left for revision. Catch up with you guys soon!

Tada~



































She's the one who can vanish away all my toubles with her stupidity. who can make me laugh so hard, like nobody's business. Who is always there showering me with unconditional love and care. My bestie, none other than NUR HIDAYAH! I LOVE YOU!
-My meanies-





















simply heart my girl!

















These were taken some time back. More insanity pics coming up. SOON.





.....One's heart cannot be stolen......

Because of you,
I never strayed too far from the sidewalk.
Because of you,
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt.
Because of you,
I am afraid.

posted @ 5:02 PM

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Saturday, July 15, 2006

Superstar virgo cruise trip part I

30th June' 2006

As promised, I am now back blogging on my cruise trip and with a random of pics. My apology having to take so long to update my blog, as I was really too tightened up with my school works. And now having to have accomplished more than a quarter of my proposal I have spared some time collaged up my pics. K anyways, the trip was simply awesome! It was simply a luxury for me to just think of nothing but snapping pics and eat!!! How can I possibly do that in my daily life? It's either work, projects or school revision works to be done that keep me going everyday. But On board, was none of these stressful and unhappy worries. And well, as happy as I was, I ate non-stop from the start of the day till the end of it. Haha. But surprisingly, I did not put on weighs. Goodness! How happy can I be? I have more than five meals a day over there. Can you picture how Michelle gonna looks like after a few months stay on board? YES, definitely you can! And certainly this time she is not gonna be as lucky. This is how she's gonna look like after months of stay.













Ehhh...how saddening and that's kinda of scary, isn't it?

Boarded the cruise at around 7pm. And on the way to the cruise, we were stopped by a 'penguin' and a photographer, we are supposed to buy our photos and photo-keychain. And this 'penguin' said something to me ''youaresobeautiful.'' oh gosh, I was darn shocked but of cos was overjoyed, who wouldn't, right? Headed straight to the our cabin. After settling down our luggage, we headed to the Chinese cuisine restaurant, the pavilion. When we arrived at their doorstep, there was already a very long queue, which was quite a turn off, as I was madly starved; haven't get a grab of any food for the whole day. And so my bro and I came out with the idea of making a trip to the Mediterranean International buffet restaurant while my parents, granny and all queued for the sits and so we could at least grab a bite at the buffet. And not surprised, the Mediterranean was equally filled with people, but good thing was we don't have to queue to get ourselves a sit. And I was luckily enough to found a sit and not having to wait for long. Soon after my lil cousins and bro got their share of food, my dad called, saying that they have gotta the sit. The dishes at that night at the pavilion wasn't as delicious as the past trips I was there, which was like years ago. Haha. Quite a disappointment. Second dinner and supper at Mediterranean International hadn't fail me so badly. I had a sumptuous dinner and supper though.

Now I shall let the pics do the talking, on how wonderful the trip was.















The very 1st day. Having the "second" dinner at the Mediterranean International buffet restaurant. My beloved grannyyy, I miss her so much now!















My self camera whoring which are mostly taken in the cabin. grins*

















I just simply loves the sea-view in the day when the shiny bright sun shines onto the blue-ish green sea. How beautiful it is. It made all my worries and troubles vanished in a second.

















The second day of the trip

are you watching, so far from here....ships that rise and disappear and flying fish like silver arrows broken by the moon...do you ever dream of breathless sunsets...do you feel my fire in your skin, the sand at your feet? do you remember when we caught the wave together...down by santa monica...and we held a perfect world...

To be continued.

Ciao people~