Friday, September 01, 2006
The affairs of the heart; the unholy mess I foresees a numerous of obstacles on this coming relationship that I might get involve in. a worriment. Something that I'm not keen in, thus do I have to dwell over it, gives all my attentions and saddens myself in the end with all these unnecessary nonchalant stuffs? Character wise, the words he uses, the empty promise he gave and the lists goes on. So what if he is genuine?
However, too much lavish wordings can be interpreted as lacking of sincerity. Then what do I wants and needs in actual? To be frank, I wants and needs things to go exactly with the way I planned, well, which barbie don't? But, often, things doesn't and won't go the same way. That's when impulsive side of me got overwhelmed; nuts decision would be made almost instantly without a second thought.
Getting involves into a romance doesn't only consist of being genuine to the other parties. It consists of many other elements. Can I accept his imperfection? Can I ride through the rock bottom moments with him? Those that we might face in the near future?
Either do I have the answer.
I've reached a decision, which is to give this affairs of the heart a miss. But why am I still agonising over it? Beats me. This is what baffles me too.
posted @ 2:34 AM
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